These last few days have been tough, erratic sleep due to my seizures, emotions all over the shop, realizations about me and of certain patterns that I don't like (at least I know I can change these things), releasing of old hurts and a deep understanding of just how much healing still needs to be done. This voyage of discovery has been exceptionally raw and brutally honest. I could not have imagined how this would evolve nor where it would take me, it is shaking my core, screaming at me, stripping me bare.
It's time to be gentle with me and nurture myself. My old pattern would be to just wallow, eat the easiest thing at hand, unhealthy patterns, not go out, shun the world. This project has helped me face that and be open, face the rawness and the brutal honesty of it all.
I have changed my eating habits immensely, I have made the decision to become vegetarian, slowly cutting out meat. I am eating and eating healthy.
Food has always been my crutch and I love to cook. Cooking is my expression of my creativity in the Kitchen. I get my inspirations from many sources and I am totally in awe of the creative souls in the service industry, who produce the most orgasmic, sumptuous, eye-catching dishes - you know the ones that make you salivate before you have tasted them, even better if you can do that from the description on the menu.
Food is definitely for me for the soul, it's like a soul satisfying hug that wraps you in healing love and tells you everything is going to be okay. Feeling blessed that I can cook and the range of food available in Australia, the fact I can afford to buy food, so grateful. Thank you soup for making me smile today.
Photograph by Andrea George using Nikon Coolpix P520
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